Does he know I love him. I always will, always have. I have scarred him, hurt him, betrayed him and yet I cannot give you an acceptable reason. What is in his heart? Does he curse me? Damn me? It is wasteful to wish I could go back in time. I must fix the damage and build a new foundation for us. He has given me nothing but happiness and I returned it with pain. I smile when I think of him, the past and yet weep at the lost years. This is my burden. A burden that haunts me.