Deep Thinking Love

Spread Your Wings and Fly

I sat there watching my grandma die. Her breathes were shallow yet She fights to live. Does she sense our presence? Does she hold on for us? I encourage her to live but not in this realm. I am willing her to let go. I reassure her that we are all ok. Her work here is done. I tell her to go embrace her son, he is waiting for her on the other side. I tell her to run through the fields in the afterlife, to bathe in the oceans of paradise.

She deserves to fly and soar through her heaven. She is the most remarkable soul always putting her family first, giving unconditional love and acceptance. I hope we will continue to strive to live by her values  We have learned so much from her. We want to make her proud.

This world is full of miracles and beauty. I will always see her in every miracle and all that beauty. She will make her presence known. I will lift my face towards the sky as  rain magically washes away my tears. I will embrace the breeze as it kisses my skin, and I will stand with strength as the sun hugs me comforting me in my sadness. I will smile at a stranger simply because they may be hurting too. And I will forgive because we are all human. I will live for her and more for me. She taught me that. We all have our own journey. Life is mysterious, magical and beautiful.

I spent all night with her. We talked spiritually laughing at memories and crying at others.
I knew her time was near. Selfishly I want to be here with her as she transitions yet she must do this alone -to prepare.
That night I left her about 3 am. I reminded her before I left to let go. She is a warrior, our Angel, our friend, and always our protector. I knew she would be stubborn so I made a deal with her. I said, “Grandma, I am leaving but this is not goodbye. You will always be with me, with us, however you are needed elsewhere. We all love you so much and understand you need to leave this realm to continue your journey. Grandma, when I leave take the time to do what you feels is necessary but remember our deal -when I go, when I leave you go too.”
Trying to be strong, I pushed down my sobs deep into my chest. I shall show her the strength she instilled in me. Standing up looking down at her I said, “Grandma, I love you and thank you “.
Giving her a hug, I whispered in her ear- “ I will see you soon. It is a good day to transition “
Without looking back, I left. It is never goodbye…..

 

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