What am I child? I have yet to explore this world of spanking so maybe I should try it. However, the idea of my partner smacking my rear does not seem appealing. I sat down with my partner watching an old movie “Exit to Eden”. The movie is funny but it does strike a nerve. I began to question if I would enjoying spanking or just the whole world of S&M? Then of course we all have heard of the fictional famous billionaire. I do on occasion like it “rough” when the passion is high and just wanna get down and dirty. Everyone loves those wild romps. But what about the submission? The need to have control? To Dominate? I may have hard time entering into this world on the simple fact that control is the issue. Giving up control leaves one vulnerable and no one likes that feeling. To give this world a chance I entered in open-minded with no expectations. I was shocked at what I discovered. My partner and I started slow and took on the road to “vanilla bean”. We started with blindfolding, then onto silk scarves, toys, and then the spanking. At first, my mind protested never allowing my body to actually feel the sensation. I was actually mortified to be spanked like a child being reprimanded of bad behavior. I bucked against the next smack. My anger and humiliation clouded my open mind. I don’t like this. Untie me! Now! I lost all reason and my instinct was to escape. I was trapped and the only person I trusted was now my jailer. My enemy. I choked back my sobs. My sobs of humiliation. I couldn’t figure out why this had such an impact. I didn’t know why and the frustration on not knowing deemed the bigger curse. Softly and so lovingly my partner did something completely surprising. She kissed the area I had been smacked. She swirled her tongue over the heat of the sting down my thigh. Her moves were erotic, hypnotizing and so caring. She spanked me again. My nerve ending lit up like Las Vegas. My embarrassment faded to being replaced with arousal. I allowed myself to relax, trust my partner and enter into the world of S&M.