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Just a Thought

My goal is to write something every day but today I got nada, zilch, zero, big fat fucking nothing. I am literally sitting here on my second-hand couch staring out the window with a million things flooding my thoughts but unable to lock in on one. I hate this kind of day where I am pissed off at the world and pissed off my coffee has gotten cold. It is just THAT kind of day.…

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Letter to My Readers…..

Hello everyone, I admire your bravery for entering into my world. What a brave, brave soul you are…..(insert chuckle). Ok- so with that…… let’s continue on with this letter 😉 Often times my thoughts are scattered, irrational, emotional, and sarcastic. I spend more time rationalizing them trying to convince myself that I am normal and everyone thinks like me; THEY just DON’T want to ADMIT it. Just like no one wants to admit they pick…

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Circus Freak

My wife and I try to have date nights. Sounds simple enough. Every couple should have date nights to break away from the mundane. We spend so much time at work, household chores, and family obligations we tend to forget each other. The last thing on our mind at bedtime is romance. Falling facedown into our pillow we manage a mumbled ” I love you” before the chorus of snores echo the room. However, on…

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My Friend, Death

Death is my friend, grudgingly. No introductions are needed. The courtship started when I was child with the death of my father. Taunting me, she shows herself as if to remind me that I am not worthy of it. We see death as an ending, as the final chapter in someones life. In fact, it is quite the opposite. The hospital was cold, sterile, and quiet. The front doors opened in a swooshing automatic way…

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MY Reality, Your Creation

I did not create this reality, you did; everyone did but surely not me.  There is no way I would have purposely created THIS for myself.  I struggle daily trying to find my place in the world.  I envy anyone who is so set in their convictions.  They embrace it yet I refuse mine.   I live between reality and the awareness of my fucked up existence.  I stare at people and think ‘ this is…

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Simple Times?

As I sit here watching reruns of TV sitcoms, I start to reminisce about how life seemed simpler.  We lived in the moment and things just seemed uncomplicated.   I remember hopping on my bike pedaling to the local convenient store to grab my mom a pack of smokes.  I was fourteen.  It was no big deal and by doing these errands it did not encourage me to smoke. I really gave no thought to it.…

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Ugly People are Beautiful Reminders

I am no hero nor am I trying to be one.  Some think they are entitled to their 15 minutes of fame.  Who are you trying to be famous for and why?  I don’t seek fame nor glory. I have no fucking clue what I am searching.  I guess you could say the same as everyone else.  Love, prosperity, acceptance and happiness.  I know I should be saying peace on earth but I am NOT…

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